i sit around on a noon on Tuesday trying to watch MNF on my computer…
Could i ever imagined myself here? In a foreign country?
i think a lot about the good ole days. Sometimes i wish i didn’t have them. It makes the ordinary days just seem so…
Life seems so different than it was ten years ago.
i used to play basketball 3-4-5 times a week. i worked out 4 times a week. i would play bball for 5-6 hrs/week and work-out 4-5 hrs/wk. Back in highschool i played football or baseball or basketball every day.
And now, i do none of that. i play college football on the PS2 and fantasy sports. i love it, but i don’t actually exercise- maybe that is why i like it so much…
i suppose i could do more than my 15 minutes of stretching each day, but sometimes it hurts, and sometimes it’s tiring. Maybe i’m just getting old.
And then i think about how technological our world has become. Could you imagine if we had xanga or facebook or IM when i was in college? DANG.
i probably would have wrote about a lot of songs- i never realized how depressing they all are, until i started relistening to stuff this year. Pumpkins, nirvana, pearl jam, green day, soul assylum…
i used to get into deep conversations at every meal, and i loved ministry. Everything i learned about God was fresh and exciting.
i don’t think life is anywhere close to what i imagined it to be.
And yet, some things are the same. Things i wish were not. i still struggle with depression and what people think of me and lonliness.
Certainly God gives peace and joy. Yet, i am groaning for so much more. Perhaps, most i look back and long for what used to be, but i suppose i should be groaning for what is going to come.
wow, bringing back stuff from the 90s with smashing pumps, nirvana, pearl, green and soul!! Good stuff!! hey, i’m chatting for you… feel better
no need to answer this question back to me… but why are you in China man?