There’s an episode of Seinfeld where George buys a salad for Elaine, but his gf gives it to her and Elaine thanks her. George gets peeved. And it’s funny.
but, i’m like George. i hate to admit it, but i am.
i am so pretentious, so prideful.
i know the Lord says if you live for the praise of men, you have your reward here and that’s all you get. Eternal rewards are better.
But so often, i just want my reward here. i want to be noticed for what i have done. If something is my idea, my heart craves the credit.
It’s so weird, something within me telling me to yell it out- ME. and Something else calmly telling me to say not a thing.
but when someone says” “i heard this some where, i can’t remember who said it…” and i know it was me who said it, what do i do? Oh, i want that attention.
Pride hits many forms.
Sometimes i hear people complain, and i want to tell them, they need to work on their own attitude, but then, i wonder if i’m just being prideful again… but then, it’s probably pride why i don’t speak up and confront…
Isn’t it so easy for us to see other people’s mistakes, and not think about how we need to change/grow?
And how about asking for forgiveness? Sometimes i feel like the only person who messes up. And i ahte admitting it anymore.
So, then i withdraw, i avoid situations, people- pride again.
Oh pride, so much in me…