i find i am always trying to make things right.
i want to do the right thing to get the perfect outcome.
Like in friendships, i am trying to say the right thing, or make the right gesture, or create the best environment.
i probably do this even more in planning, leading and ministry.
And whenever i try to make things better, or make things right- it never quite works out the way i want
My own effort will always leave me wanting more, will always come up short of my desire.
A few years ago i was examining the idea of abiding in Christ. And the question i kept on asking is “What do i ahve to do to abide in Christ?”
Abiding is so abstract, i didn’t like it.
but, that is what it came down to- faith.
And now, i think i fall into the trap more and more. As a leader, as a team member, as a friend, in ministry and realationships- i really rely on my effort. If i work hard enough, or come up with the right plan, or research enough, or study enough- then things will go well.
i want to pray more. i need to trust God more. i need to understand i won’t understand it all.
(This movie was good, but it could just further ingrains the idea of hard work, persistance will get you all you want…)