To be seen as stupid or lazy? Which would you choose?
This has been a debate in my mind over the last several years. In college, I started skipping class, and not studying because in my mind, it felt better if people thought I was lazy than realizing I was stupid.
I once had a professor tell me I was an A student doing C work. Honestly, I thought I was a C/D student doing F work. I got an A in the class, but I don’t know how. I think it was one of 5 classes I got higher than a C.
I started doing bad in class, and I didn’t want the truth to come out- I’m dumb.
See, in highschool, people thought I was smart because I was quiet. But not really the case. I figured if I’m not going to be all that bright, I might as well have some fun.
I guess it’s kinda like- would I rather people think me attractive , but have a bad personality or have a good personality, but ugly. I’d rather girls thought I was good-looking. My personality could be changed.
In reality, I feel personality is more important. I also feel like being a hard-worker is more important. So, instead of working on my appearance, I work on my personality. And though I give a pretense of being lazy, I work hard.
So, it kinda stings when people think I’m lazy- even if I’m perpetuating that thought- because I think I’m pretty hard-working.
I guess in the ideal world, I’d like people to think I’m both smart and hard-working. Maybe I’m neither.
Or an ideal world no one would make those judgements, but as in a previous post, we know people make labels…
So, I guess I’ll continue to perpetuate that I’m lazy- because to most people, that also means I’m fun. And then try not to worry what people think of me…
… but I suppose that is the solution all along….